Good day. During this time for celebration and gatherings, I hope you can spend time with your loved ones. Today, I am going to look back past few years and make new year's resolutions. Since I have wrote this blog in Japanese so far, this is challenging but fun☺
Throughout 2021~2022, I have felt like totally lost my direction and consistency for any kind of stuffs. Most of energey has been wasted to work that I do not believe it is deserve to do it. I was worn out, both physically and emotionally, by spending long time with people who can't be called respectable. I sometimes standed up for new studying, working out and blur blur...than repeatedly got up and fall behind due to overtime work. Especially in pandemic situation, we all has been caught in and forced quite inconvenient and restricted life. Covid-19 has also caused terrible exchange rates, inflation, and delivery delays in business. We always have to manage these troubles, I am sure this elevated our cortisol levels...
To put my feeling in word, actually I have felt myself so misery like a time traveler left alone in the future world. Everyone seems like to make grate progress, and happy family with new tecnology, but not me. What I only had is work, worthless work from old house in the country side with ton of books. I wanted to shout up "Am I dead or alive? What a hell is going on here?" I realized that everything was turned into difference from what used to be. I finally found me as who no longer has shiny dreams as a young girl, but who is completely lost passion for the future and utterly exhausted.
But a few good things happened the last year. Oneday, I met quite interesting friends. We involved very diverse charactors. Few of womens are housewife, few of womens engages nightlife business...we are getting close and close as every time we enjoy talking so silly and confide in each other's weaknesses from time to time. They remind me one of beautiful thing in our life is supporting each other.
So my new year's resolution is finding a new life dream, meeting new people, organizing daily life much better. (maybe with bullet journaling? Even I know I lack of talent for it? lol), and posting this blog in English. It must be good learning and also reflesh. So thank you for reading my post!
もう脳みそが疲れてきたので唐突にやめます。(笑)
初夢も最悪だったんだけど2023年は違う一年にしたいと思っている。
